Things have been going ok. I have a job at the San Jose Repertory Theater, which is exciting except for having to do sales... But I get to go to shows for free. I heard back from IKEA (a week after they told me they'd get back to me...) and I've been hired, so now I have to see about balancing that and SJ Rep. So yay having jobs to support myself.

I am considering getting a car or motorcycle or whatever, because IKEA is a bit away via public transit, but we'll see. For now... public transit is my friend.

I'm a bit... concerned? Or maybe resigned? about my relationship with my girlfriend. It basically comes down to: I am a clingy person, and she is not. This isn't a bad thing, as I want to be less freakishly clingy, and I think she's helping me by not letting me be ridiculously clingy. However... I feel like she just doesn't care about seeing me most of the time? I'm not demanding to see her constantly, but we hardly talk (originally we'd chat a bit online or she'd let me text her a lot, but that's died off for the most part...) and I just feel like she doesn't care about seeing me. I am pretty confident when we're together, because I can see how she's responding, but I guess I'm just waiting for her to say that our romantic relationship isn't what it shold be and it's over. I'm not even upset, I'm sort of just hanging around to see how things develop and figure if it gets to a point where I'm actually starting to feel unhappy, I'll try to talk to her about it. So guess we'll see there....

I'm having two slightly off issues I don't know how to deal with. The first is about a friends brother, who has Aspergers. Our relationship is odd, and we argue a lot and seem to butt heads, and I'm starting to worry that he honestly dislikes me. I don't want our relationship to be off, but I don't know if we can even have a decent relationship considering how we've gotten along the last few months.... Luckily he's going away to college soon so I hopefully won't have to worry about things being terribly shitty if we can't seem to get along.

The other problem is one of my best friends girlfriends. Now, we don't really get along. We just don't jive. Which is fine. I try to get along, because she's important to my friend, and my friend is important to me, and unless there are actual issues there's no reason to not. However... GF doesn't like me. And it isn't the fact that she doesn't like me as a person that bothers me. It's how she acts. She's either seriously bitchy and caustic and rude, or she's thick sweet fake syrupy nice. I don't appreciate either attitude. And lord forbid you disagree with her, because she just gets bitchier and nastier.

Tonight was a prime example of the issues going on. I talked my BF and a few friends into going out to watch the perseid meteor shower. It ended up being me, BF, GF, and BFs brother. Throughout the two hours we were out and about, GF was mostly a snarky bitch, but was occasionally super fake nice. My favorite part was when we got out to the middle of nowhere, at almost 11pm, and it turned out we had no blankets. I told BF to bring them, but the GF told her not to, and when BF and I both complained of the cold GF was a bitch about it and basically called us pathetic whiny babies. Nice, yeah? Then, not even an hour there, and GF starts whining she's cold and uncomfortable and wants to go right that very fucking second. Or, y'know, we could all sit in the CAR to watch THE STARS. Cuz that fucking makes sense.

Afterwards, BF and I had said I'd sleep at her place.... but it turns out that she was actually supposed to sleep at her GF's place. But because GF didn't call and set shit up like she was supposed to, and BF already said I could stay over, BF made the call that we'd just sleep at her place. Let's just say that GF wasn't happy and was a total bitch in process of taking me to my place to get my laptop, going to her place, and finally getting settled at GF's place. Everything came to a head when BF and her brother were being cuddly affectionate and GF started throwing a massive fit, that included being a bitch to the brother, smacking him on the head to try to make him go away, and then making a 'get a room' comment about the siblings. Basically, she was being an ubercocksuck and I could have just kick her fucking ass.

When she kept making bitchy comments, BF finally talked to her. I sat and listened to them awkwardly attempt to talk tihngs out, before finally butting in with my opinion and telling them, essentially, they both had the right to be upset, had to deal with each other being upset, couldn't change things, but GF was an ubercocksuck with the comments and bitchy and smacking of the brother. I point blank told her if she had done that to my brothers, who I am much less affectionate with, I would have punched her in the face.

So, happy ending, they BF and GF seemed to have, kind of, dealt with their issues. Down side is I don't think either of them learned a fucking thing and they're not going to work together to fix shit. I just get to watch them crash and burn.

Uh, on an up note, I get to go to breakfast with adopted mom tomorrow. I'm getting insecure and thinking I should just pull away from this whole 'adopted family' bit.... :\

Making business cards, need help deciding, let me know if you have any opinion on either of these cards.




Thanks :)

~ta

So another bit about Krane and Nye, two lovely birds from aggybird's Sparrow Through the Heart 'verse. GO READ IT, IT IS AMAZORING. XD I hope you enjoy.

Also, the puns were hideously fun to write, so no one is allowed to kill me for them. >_>

( Who needs a stupid support flock anyway? )

a little something something for aggybird, set in the Sparrow Through the Heart 'verse. XD

( Ex's can be a right pain in the tail. )

I like these two, heh!

Title: Over Priced, Under Valued and Over Sexed


( New and improved... )

So after a few days of constant mauling by my mothers rats--Azizi, the monster chihuahua, and Zoe, the mini dachshund--I was thinking of the challenge aggybird provided when she dared to ask "Where my wereyorks at?" This fic was then spawned. Sorry 'bout it. *snickers a bit*

Title: Over priced, under valued and over sexed
Written in first person... I don't know why... I'll probably try to re-write it before Aggy's birthday. :) Not even porn yet! But no worries... >_>


( Wereyorkie? There yorkie! )

I had a dream last night. I was a boy, there was cocaine involved O_o; and at one point I did something that caused my teeth to... splint and crumble some, some coming out completely.

But, in good news, I slept next to a pretty girl. She had a girlfriend, but still, I take my happiness where I can find it. :p

For anyone that's interested.... that girl I liked and had a date with? Yeah, before we went out, she decided she was more interested in a guy she knew and we've since ended any sort of romantic entanglement we may have had. I was sad about it, of course, but have pretty much moved past it. Also, a handful of friends are vibrating with righteous anger on my behalf. :) Awwww, so nice to be loved.

So I've decided I just need to start hitting on cute girls (when appropriate) and not worry so much about getting rejected. This will hopefully help me get over being nervous. :p *comes up with stupid plans*

My friend that is a programmer helped me crack some software in a rather legal fashion. XD So if anyone has need of a certain office product being made legit.... >_> Haha.

Nearly done with an edit job I was given, so happy about that. Gonna get some more writing done.

Title: The Gryphon Suite
Pairing(s): Z/C
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Not my boys, kinda my world, but unrepentantly inspired from the Key Series. :)
Synopsis: A/U; Boy meets whore, love ensues (eventually). You know how it goes.
Note: Have never written pr0n except for RPing, so please be nice about it. >_>


( Read The Gryphon Suite )

Title: Time For Something Completely Different or I Hope That's Strawberry Lube
Pairing: Casey/Zeke
Summary: It's Valentines day (well, close enough) and Zeke decides to take a very... different approach to things.
Word Count: 1647
Rating: PG 13
Author's Notes: Things just kinda exploaded, I'm sorry! But it was pretty fun to write, and I hope you all get a giggle out of it. :)




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Casey looked around, eyes bright and face glowing at the sight before him. His friends were overjoyed, screaming and high-fiving and jumping off furniture. The world was changing, history was being made right before their eyes.

Eyes settling on dark, messy hair, Casey felt his smile soften as something deeper and more intimate overtook him. After so many years and so many changes (in each of them, in the dynamics of their little group, and in their world), it gave Casey a sense of peace that each change had simply cemented their relationships, brought them closer. Made them family.

Just then Zeke looked at him, eyes warm and smile brilliant. Every time he saw Zeke's eyes light up, Casey's breath was stolen.

Even if they were only small parts of this moment, Casey knew they were important. They were going to change the world, one small and seemingly insignificant decision at a time.

After all, if a group of disorganized teenagers could defeat an alien queen and save humanity, they could damn well help steer the free world into the right direction.

What happens when you find out you're not quite as clever as you thought you were?

"The Mischievous"

“Hey!” The goblin-boy looked up in surprise as a mad scientist swooped in, giving him a firm but fleeting kiss.

“Wha—”

Smirking, the scientist strode off without another word. He was rather pleased, having stolen a kiss, making the first move and leaving a befuddled—

“—make a great Clark Kent, Casey! But I thought you were coming as a goblin?”

“I let Stan use it and decided on a geeky alter-ego that’s really bad ass,” Casey explained with a grin.

“I think Zeke’ll love it, you look so suave!”

“I can’t wait,” Casey agreed, grinning mischievously.

Well, fuck.

The kids all hang out on Halloween. What could possibly go wrong?

"Raccoons, Creeps... Creeping Raccoons?"

“You are such a creep.” Stokely said, trying and failing to hide her smirk.

Casey grinned and lounged back. “Nah. Where’s the camera?”

Delilah laughed, handing the camera to Casey. “He’s gonna freak.”

“Well—“ Casey was interrupted by a scream of rage.

“Casey!”

Everyone froze as they heard Zeke stomping through the kitchen and onto the porch. Everyone managed to keep quiet for about three seconds before glancing at Casey and seeing his angelic expression. That, combined with Zeke’s gel-spiked hair and heavily lined face, made them bust out laughing without reservation.

“You’re dead,” Zeke growled, then lunged.

FLASH.



NOTE: Sorry the pic is blurry, please enjoy! The note on the poloroid says "Zeke- Happy Halloween! LOVE -C". The sticky note says "Casey - It took for FUCKING ever to wash that marker off! Ass."

Gone for a bit because of a loss of (ahem, borrowed ^_~) internet.

Yard sale is underway, and I've made some money, but I've also already spent some and not sold nearly enough stuff. No one is buying the furniture. ARGH. Well, if nothing else, I guess we'll just drop it off at Goodwill *sigh*. I'd rather have the cash in hand, but it doesn't seem to be a good time for a sale, anyway.

Kevin is in Phoenix. I miss him so. It's pathetic, but I'm dealing. I've got a bunch of stuff boxed up and sitting in the living room, ready to be stowed in the car to go to Franks. It's so depressing. Kevin should be back sometime by the end of the week to help me finish up getting rid of stuff and cleaning.

It's... difficult for my brain to wrap around it. The time is here. Kevin is officially in Phoenix, no longer living with me, I won't see him every day, or even every week or month. I have to be patient, give him time. I have to breathe.

In the meantime, I'm trying to get a job with CitiGroup which pays awesome amounts of cash. Also, once I'm living with Frank, I should be working out at least four times a week. I don't want miracles, but I'd love to tone up, lose maybe 20lbs.

Before Kevin left, we got notebooks to write to each other. I wrote a few things to him. We decided we'd read them each time we visit each other. Try to keep up with stuff. *deep breath* Oh, but there IS good news. Living arrangements didn't work out quite as well as Kevin had hoped :( but he did find out he IS the new electronics dude, so he's making another $.65 an hour, plus he should get a raise in Sept (hopefully another $.60). This is awesome.

If I do get the job at CitiGroup, I might try to keep my WalMart job part time. We'll see.

God, this is a fragmented post. lol. Ah, well, I guess I'm sort of fragmented right now. *small smile*

I'm very hopeful about what will happen with Kevin and I. I am. Also very worried, but I'm struggling to keep that at bay. Whee.

And now for a nap Have a good one everyone.

Things have been a bit off with me and Kevin. I don't want to hash it out, but I'll sum it up: I think I've been wigging a bit because we were going to move and I was just overreacting (sometimes a little, sometimes a lot, and it usually snowballed). Anyway, Kevin ame home, we chatted, he explained he thought he'd need time away--a "break". I've never heard of a single couple really being able to agree to a "break" and managing to get back together (breaking up completely and ending up together again is different!). So, we spent a while talking, I cried a lot, but we agreed to work on it--it's both of us, me overreacting, and him being a little worried, wanting simple things, not talking....--so we're going to see how things go from here. Once the lease is up, we'll probably sign a lease somewhere for 3-6 months, that way it's not a huge committment.

I really want this to work. I love him, I adore him. I've thought a lot about love in the last year (since before Kev) and I tried to figure out what it is. And I think it's this. I don't want to lose it, and my heart tells me that if we take a break, it'll be over. So we'll work on it, I'll work on myself. I want this.

I can see myself marrying him. Isn't that crazy? I never wanted to get married before. But I'd marry him. And I'd even have his baby! How fucking scary is that, coming from the queen of adoption?

Wish me luck.

We're both probably going to be checking out new jobs. Wal*Mart blows majorly. Mainly it's our current manager, but there are other annoying factors. I'm giving my resume to a co-worker for a Dr.'s assistant position at her other job (she's an optomitrist!). If I get that (or any other second job) I'll prolly drop to part time overnight at Wal*Mart, working 25ish hours. I could seriously use the extra money. And either way with Kevin, I think it would be good for us not to work together--I love it, but I don't think he does.... maybe I'll eventually get my wish for him to be a little clingy and needy. :p

I think I've picked out the classes I'll be taking this fall. I'm going to start out taking a few online courses, so I can do my shit whenever I have time. The classes I'm thinking of are Principles of Marketing, Web Publishing, and College Algebra.

Lucky me Kevin is a maths GENIUS and he could ace the course for me--though I'll actually do the work, I just need a tutor.

I dropped the car off at Pep Boys a bit ago. I need a brake change and such. Luckilly, it will only be $101.95, and my brother will cover half since he's been driving my car for five months or so. :) Also going to need an oil change, but I've found the cheapest place to do that is at Wal*Mart. Will probably end up taking it on my day off or something.

I've recently re-discovered googles personalized page, which they now call iGoogle (>_> I think that's sorta lame...). I've had fun playing with it. And they have a to-do list function! Whee!

Serioously considering buying some waterpaints to play with, for fun. *ponders*

AH! My (and Ninz's and JP and Norma's (the last two from work, you've never heard of them :p)) birthday is coming up!!!! On the 20th, I shall be turning 23 years young! I really want to celebrate, because I feel in the last year I've made some wonderful changes and grown so much! Frank's present for me is a trip to a mountain (can't remember the name) and to teach me how to drive a motorcycle! Exciting!!! And, of course, I'll be sharing that with Kevin, as he'd love to learn too. I'm so generous :) Kevin has made noises about taking me away to soooomething, but I don't know if it'll happen. We'll see! And (one) of my presents to myself is to bake cupcakes for people at work (everyone gets a happy birthday cupcake!). WHEE. I shall have FUN.

My mom went home at the end of May and after a week had to go back to Missouri, because my grandfather went to the hospital. He has a bone infection and it's extremely likely he will lose his foot and part of his leg (from the knee down, they say). They're going to try to do a vein bypass, but it's likely he'll lose the leg. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

I love you all. Thank you so much for letting me know you!


xxx
London

OMG. I'm blown away! I saw "Pan's Labyrinth" last night with Frank and it was SOOOOOOO AMAZING. I loved it. I just can't express how much I love it.

In worky news, I went to work on Saturday, but left after only fifteen minutes. The reason? I'd started my period and was cramping so bad I'd been sobbing for forty minutes before work! I took LOTS of painkiller and passed out. Was better in the morning, and thank god I had another 3 day weekend!

Kevin's gone to Yuma for a bit, I'm hoping he'll be back tonight, but at the latest he should be back tomorrow morning. I want a cuddle.

I can't wait to see Pirates III. It's so awesome. ^_^

In happy news, I finally found the receipt to return the AC!! I couldn't find it for the looooongest time! This is happiness ^_^ Also found $35! I had to run to Savers to return a busted router. The thing that's annoying is they only do exchanges, so not only did I have to find $18 + tax worth of shit, it was a 50% off sale! So I had to find DOUBLE that! ARGH. I never thought I'd hate to see a sale so bad. But I walked out with seven shirts for work, three pairs of jeans also for work, and a very pretty dress.

I've done some thinking. And I'm glad! I've realized that I don't mind what I look like so much--my face, my body. I think I'm quite pretty and my body is nice enough. But I do want to make changes! So I'm going to spend the nest two months (before the move) adjusting my eating habits to be healthier, and then after the move I'm going to start working out and swimming and just generally being more active. But... I like myself now more than I think I ever have, and I think that's good. :)

Trying to relax this weekend. But also have to get my PV project done (I've coded a lot of the products, so yay!) and clean the house. Ah, and must do laundry!

Kevin and I plan on getting rid of a bunch of our stuff--mostly it's stuff we don't need, some things we'll be replacing. But OMG so mcuh stuff!!! lol

Kay, I'm off! Dishes await! (as does Mika... >_>)

Mom's in MO, but might be leaving as early as Wednesday or Thursday--my uncle, Rollie, disconnected something on the AC and they can't get it to work. Also, since grandpa's place is right by a lake, the bugs are incredibly crazy. So, we'll see how long she sticks it out.

Kevin went to Phoenix to visit a friend, might be back tonight or tomorrow morning, we'll see. I'm going to try cooking this orange honey chicken. It's supposed to be a glaze, but I'm going to try cooking it in one of those oven bags instead. Hopefully it'll be nice and juicy.

The puppy is doing good. Cutest damn thing. I'm hoping he and Nichi will get along (specially since mom wants to breed them). Still have to decide if he'll stay or go home with mom. I love him dearly, and he's getting used to being left at the apartment, but I worry I don't give him enough attention, and I know my mom can give him far more. Sigh, such a quandry.

Currently watching "A Time To Kill". I love this movie.

I've been working out how to eat healthier, will be forcing myself to go to the gym with Frank in the mornings, try to go swimming with Frank a few times a week, and will try to take bike rides. Now, don't get me wrong--it's not just for Kevin, it's for me too! I may not be fat, but I do feel unattractive and uncomfortable in my own body. I would like to change that. And, even if Kevin constantly told me how drop-dead lovely I was and that he wouldn't change me, I'd still be uncomfortable (though I'd feel a little better.... -_-).

And, on the roommate front, I'm pretty sure I'm going to ask Jami to move out. I just get so irritated with her--she acts like we're a family unit, like we should do practically everything together, but that's not so. We're friends and roommates, and I do NOT want to spend most of my free time making sure she's entertained. She got a job at Wal-Mart making almost nine bucks an hour, she can damn well afford to move out on her own. I am not her mother or sister, I have no responsibility towards her, and I am damn well not here to make her life easier. She will survive.

I'm strung somewhere between feeling like a bitch, and feeling releived that I'll have my (and Kevins) apartment back. WHEE.

Oh, and Sarah's offered me a coding job. I have no idea what to qoute as a price, though O_O Anyone want to help me figure it out?

xxx

Mom left today to see grandad. Might be down here as early as Friday, depnding. We'll see :)

In other news, I did a stupid thing. I asked Kevin if he would prefer that I lose weight. His answer was, of course, yes. I dunno, it makes me feel ugly and stupid at the same time. Ugly, for obvious reasons, and stupid, well, because.... I'm not the most blind person, I have certain things that, physically, I am not likely to be attracted to--such as being rather overweight. But I'm not that overweight (only a size 14, maybe 40lbs overweight?), and I honestly just wish I could have heard "No, it doesn't matter."

I'm such a stupid fuck sometimes.

I wish I could lose weight.

Heya.

Yeah, so much for staying in touch... Sorry!

Well, for those that heard Sarah and I had a little of a falling out, no fears! We have made up and seem to be on much better terms. I am happy! Also, I got my new desktop, woot! It needs a new OS, as this one is buggy, and apparently I need a new wireless router (this one is dying/incompatable, and that's why I've been using someone elses net. Pssha.

I have a puppy, a baby chahuahua, but I have to decide if he'll stay with me or go home with mom. His name is Azizi <3.

And on that note, my mom, sister and brother are all coming down to visit in a few weeks. Justin will be moving to Cali, so I'll just see him for a weekish. Also, Kevin and I are supposed to go to a wedding of one of his best friends, but we'll prolly have to rush back to work that night. Sigh. C'est la vie.

Kevin is obsessed with God of War II. I've got a new friend, Frank, who's fab. Jami is getting a job with WalMart again. Things are doing okay. :) I got a 4GB jump drive for $37, huzzah. Unfortunatley, my phone also seems to be crapping out so I'll have to look at replacing it. Arg.

Here's to updating more!

xxx

Highlight of my week: Seeing Eminem in drag (sexshay!).

Getting uppers to go to Pima and talk about starting classes. After bills (but before food) I'll have $350 left. Woot!